So I have been going to school for awhile now and I am just getting so frustrated with it. But its not because I am doing bad, I am just tired. On top of it all I am just worn out because of the two girls and the house. I have been taking it easy lately because I have realized that I need to get other stuff done before I can do all that stuff. I keep is clean but it is alittle messy. lol.

Now... Family stuff has gotten alittle easier. Of course there is always going to be problems but oh well. The one thing that really bothers me is the fact that some people are being really rude to some members of the family. I dont mean other family members either. There is a person or a group of people that have been hacking into a family members fb account and have been doing really mean and horrible things to this family member. This is just horrible because she is a great person.

F U and Your Horse

I just wanted to tell everyone that has a problem with me that you can fuck off.
So fuck you and the horse you rode in on!
I am so tired of people looking at me and thinking that I am horrible.

Oh and by the way.... I end up hearing everything that is said about me.

Family Feelings

This is one of those posts where I am not going to hold anything back.

I am so tired of feeling like I dont belong. There are some family member who are just amazing and I feel so welcomed. That is why I like to spend time with them. I am generally a nice person until you really piss me off. And even then I am nice. Which is so stupid because certain people are still rude to me. So I am done!

I am tired of people trying to "fix" everything and it only makes things worse. If you dont want to get involved then dont. Tell them to deal with it on their own.

If you have a problem then Im sorry. I am not going to be the person that you can vent to because you are having a bad day and no one else will listen to you or you want to put me down just because I am not blood related to the family. I know that I am only married into the family but still. I am here to stay whether you like it or not.

I am so hurt with what has been said to me and about me to other people. I hate that I feel like I am the root cause of the family problems. I dont like that we have to push away family just so I can have a good relationship with my husband and my girls. I like having a great relationship with my husband and I dont like that family thinks that causing problems with him and I is going to bring him closer to them. And I also hate that I feel that way. I don't like feeling like I am tearing this family apart. I have enough problems with my family.

I am a nice person. I dont like to be mean cause thats not who I am. But with that being said I am not going to sit back and let you treat me like shit. If you are going to treat me like shit then good luck seeing my girls. I dont want them to be around someone who doesnt like or respect me for who I am.